TPatF (The Princess and the Frog)

was on en Español.

Sad

Sorry @ today, but I felt so irritated.

Not the 1

Ellen, why would you clump me in the crowd and hate me, too?

Music Awards

Miley Cyrus + Taylor Swift = the end

I'm not!

I'm not singing to my full potential.  I need to cook more, and I hope this Pilates and yoga works out and is challenging.  I go to Disney each week but wanna do ballet and singing.

TV

New Video

New Video of Me Singing

IMDb

New Video

New Video of Me Singing a Song I Just Wrote - Lyrics @ Bottom

Mebbe

I should write a song.

Mad?

I'm not better..  My room is dirty again.  Everything I do is worthless.  I'll get better, though.

YouTube Comment

Sarah Brightman
Concert
The Phantom of the Opera from The Phantom of the Opera

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Hello! Thanks for posting, what a wonderful performance! ¡Muchos gracias!

Problem

How dare my mom act like I'm a toy exercising coming in!  Helena Bonham Carter is mean to me!!

Break

She's taking a break I think for Christmas month.  I imagine she has things to do with her space trip, possibly or will maybe have an interview happen.  Still, we see her it so happens in the concerts on YouTube.  Her Twitter and Facebook are active.

What I Think of Others

I usually don't feel well, but I like people I recently followed to a degree.  I mean Sarah Brightman is a nice kind of person, neither especially big nor small.

Helloo..

Yes, I am still keeping up with Sarah Brightman.  They are allowed to record the concert.  They post songs on YouTube.  Anyone else really like her?  I hope we can meet her.  See how good you can get, but I think she likes to meet others, too.  Post online, maybe.

Problem Solved

Computer Speakers only $20 @ Wal-Mart.  Our TV doesn't let you use headphones.

Problem

Ellen cannot tell us what to do.  Just cuz I was mad does not mean my dad can't do karaoke.  She's a joker.. *beep*.

What I Imagined

I wondered about me hopping in my chair and making it hit the ground.  All I could imagine is what I told myself I don't have the dignity to imagine, real violence.  I've imagined being mad because of Tim Burton.  He's not that great he fears.  Well, you've seen pictures and things you liked much better.  He's probably not better than Sanrio was.

Problem

Stop Ellen trying to think you're worth anything being from the South.  I said SHUT UP I WANNA **** YOU UP.  So stop coming in my life with these symbols like that.  What are you for, anyway?  I was interested in you.  You're just a fake or *beep* *beep* *beep*.  You don't know how to do anything with kids.  Stop trying to push families too close.  They wanna be close to their friends, you!!

STOP

SHUT UP GO AWAY YOU FAT PIG DON'T YOU TOUCH ME *BEEP*

STOP

I WANNA **** SOMEONE UP!

I DON'T NEED YOU YOU *BEEP* I AM NICE AND YOU'RE UNINTELLECTUAL.  YOU'RE ALWAYS IN MAH FACE.

Mad

My mom came in and made me mad earlier.  I skipped my meds 1 day before and look what happened!

Did you know..

..her e-mail won't even come to my new e-mail, the newsletter??

Problem

I feel so stupid following Ellen.  STOP ACTING STUPID AND MAKING THINGS TIME ON MY COMPUTER FUNNY LIKE YOU'RE THAT WORTH DOING IT

O Wow

STOP IT YOU JUST MADE ME SLAM MY CHAIR LIKE HOP IN IT

I SAID STOP

PROBLEM

WHY ARE YOU GUYS FOLLOWING ME YOU'RE NOT ***Y SHUT UP I SAID YOU WEREN'T

PROBLEM

WOW ELLEN HOW WORTHLESS DO YOU MAKE LIFE

PERHAPS YOU DIDN'T GET WHAT I SAID

You got my dad to get a karaoke machine.  Now, I have to wear earplugs.  Yea, my parents like to hear me sing.  Gotta problem?  Go stick your head in a hole!

You got a real joke?  Leave me alone.

Problem

Ellen is a creep.  My speakers broke and I don't have anywhere right now to even put headphones, and now my dad has a karaoke machine.  I don't care, but I think @ it.

You Guys

You're all such pervs in my life.  Stop approaching me like I'm shit or did something.

So, I just exercised.  When I was with my dad in the car, I felt the bottom of me more physical and usually I don't notice it.  My dad said it'll go away in a few seconds, had just been talking to his mom, who just moved permanently to Florida.  Hey, what was that, you made the text blink!  Also, my mom sounded like she said "forever" @ reserving a ride to the therapist.

What's Going On

So, I got 2 DVDs, Cardio Pilates and Oriental Power Yoga.

I've been having root beer floats, but they taste better at Disney and not that good here.  Maybe, I shouldn't soften the ice cream.

I thought more of what I did, and it should pass.  I guess that's the main question.  No one likes it.  As for me, I feel that I have been literally tricked by Johnny Depp and the world reigned in havoc.  Me dysfunctional and out of work and also school.

Forum

Bye!

Upset..

Stop making a big deal of you attacking me.  What if we did something suggestive to Ellen for always being selfish @ pleasure?  That must be the answer, that she's being selfish @ pleaseure.  She did something suggestive to me, and you can argue I imagined hitting her mom on the head with a cup but not a real cup.. just in a sorta joking way!!  Ellen, this is dum!  You know I don't feel good.  Yet..  :|  I have a feeling people will get mad at her.  I wonder if she can escape before I find out.  Okay, what if she doesn't care and does more?  What's so special @ Mama that you didn't get mad at me before?

IMDb

Upset

I have love for Ellen but feel I myself could also lose it and just go all out and have a shouting match at her.  I can imagine her slapping me for my race, though, unless I felt better.

Problem

Ellen is indecent to me.  I can't seem to understand how I got this way.  I will not take it.  She's gonna have to have something done for doing this.  No one would agree it's okay, unless they are mean.  I think she makes fun of me.  Hear that Ellen I don't like it how's that?  Don't go all stupid now.

It's very clear..

..Ellen did it on purpose.  I laugh at Ellen's stress @ her mom.  She's mean to me and suggestive.

My Thoughts Exactly

I don't care what Ellen decides for me, I don't seem to need her but need to watch this show.. I am afraid everyone on TV or whatever could change to be like her.  Ellen is a good person unless the fame got to her.

Immature

I don't ever deserve to be hurt.  I am a nice person, but now you think Tim Burton is "enough."  He changed how I am treated!  You're just bloodthirsty for pleasure.

What I Think of Her

She's too nitpicky and slightly clinically set back in her thinking.  She comes up mad.  I don't really appreciate it.  I woke up feeling m******* by 2 men on her show.  I do not chose to get close to people like that.  See, she's just gonna say she didn't really do enough.  I said she's being a nuisance and being overly mean @ protecting her mom and advertising what she fantasizes from her.  She is a robot that if I do something she always does something back, even if I'm in a situation where I am not to pick something that will stress me out.

Morning

I'm almost exactly 5'3", standing normally, ate a lot.

14 hours asleep, awake an hour in between.

Do you think Ellen is taking it too far with how much she cares @ her mom?  I feel she's revealing herself.  Like, what if you accidentally thought because of something Ellen did, "I'm gonna kill her."  I just got a response that I'm set out to hurt her when I'm really very careful.  How annoying.  They pretended she did something to me.

More

I dunno, may just sing by myself so I can buy stuff.  I am gonna work sometime, supposedly.  I wanted to go out as a singer, but I feel congestion.  It's just normal congestion, not sure what a pill would do, maybe need more.

It's making my voice crack.  Break?

Something Fun?

Since I sued to sing softly, when I pressure to make a noise it went soft..

Edit

I reordered the Pages up top.

Hm, another message?

Looks like I'm not really going back to bed.

My race?  It is what it is to you.

Lessons

I just found another way to search for lessons.  I found a teacher a year younger than me who does piano and voice and I'll do 1/2 hour voice.  I am worried my money is to go to Disney at least once a week plus help to get nice clothes more often.  It would be nice to sing in an organized environment or to see this young singer.  She looks fine, happy and a good weight.. I'll easily understand her.

Just Drop the Baby

Church music is considered classical, always put in some Latins sometime and is with organ.

A problem may be..

..money.  I use $8 for transportation to Disney and then I need at least $10 to eat.  That would cut me off to not buying normal things.. like clothes.  My mom is shopping at Sears for my Christmas, could only seem to ask for 4 things and 2 I need are pants..

So, about how do you feel, now?

I'm looking for not just a graduated singing teacher.. a real singing teacher.  3)

I'm literally

being stared down.  You can't suggest something that dum cuz I did well in voice lessons....

You're all

ridiculously mean and disgustingly callous.

That's all I ask. 3I

All they want isn't for someone to be loud and the same.  Usually, the tone or timbre doesn't work out or doesn't show expression.

Did you find out..

..singers were self-trained?  Maybe not always..

Have they stopped..

..teaching people to succeed in singing?

I think I need to sound less like Charlotte Church because I don't want to be breathy.  I just want to be able to do it.

See, singing high to me is fake for her, like I know it's easier than what she just did, really, but I can't be her.  She doesn't have a variety of timbre up there.  She is very set.  She is very good and entertaining and pleasant, as anyone would say, but I know that for anyone singing high and ringy is just the shortcut and implies to be more than it is in amateurs, unless they have a teacher.  I didn't try to just be loud and high.

Up to Nothing

You're putting down the talent I have, so you're the 1 who's really "up to nothing."

f.y.i.

I wasn't really singing, I was imitating opera singers in fact as my decision, didn't realize it was unreal but bad worse than before.  My real voice is more like standard and not bubbling in opera, you know?  But not pop..  :|

How crazy is this?

Are people's eye's popping out thinking I mustn't be a "real" singer?  What does that mean?  It's suggestive to me cuz I wanted to be a singer and told my parents at age 5 and again at 7 and had been at 6.  I don't want you to hurt my parents.  I did tell both.  Something else making you uncomfortable??  I can't believe you, you are just out to get me.  My mom asked the school and they put me in choir.  I had no clue @ private singing, was just barely a toddler at 5 I mean.  When I was 9, I had a more vocally trained instructor who spoke of private lessons.  So, she was qualified to teach us as a group I figured.  The last teacher taught us to read notes so much, and it was very hard for me in a way but I did it.  With playing it was easier.  I could observe myself at piano, then.  We moved again and in a way I felt timed for private lessons but couldn't keep up in piano..  15 again, seemed late, but it would help.  15, 16, not enough money with me doing piano, organ, ballet, tennis + martial arts.  Too busy @ 17, too, learning classical music and stuff.  I was supposed to do it in school @ 16, but another girl joined my class..  I think they got that girl to get back in.  I learned some singing, and I became a branded student and not really indepenently inclined, after all.. whatever floats your boat but I was active and alive in life, Queen of Clubs.  I did stop after that year to concentrate on ballet and singing!  I ended up in a hard history class and it ruined my life.  And f.y.i., I sang more than the vocal majors in my life.  Most started right before getting in.  I was under the impression most people weren't that comfortable singing to enjoy it, which if you didn't was more suspicious than me in any way.  I liked them but didn't know why they came in flip flops so we'd be concentrating on their feet.  I wonder how I'd do with vibrato had I been trained sooner.  I saw this girl start voice @ 8, did recorder then flute and swimming.  I admire her.  She had an excellent voice but changed in college.  Wanted to be an opera singer, though I must say she had a voice that when I imitated made my voice start to crack all the time, just this year.  It was whispery and sincere..  She said musical theater ruins the voice.. I was always wary of that and kinda clinged to church music.  I tried to sing more normally and not like pop.  So..

I think

I can't hear myself sing.  Maybe, I can now.  I woke up to go to the RR.  I left my Ave Maria on.  Do you think Renee Fleming can sing?  She's done it since she was a baby and her parents are teachers, but I don't see any special thing other than talent that she looks for.  She doesn't really make all the criticisms, so-to-speak.  Her personality is much like Sarah Brightman!!

Well

I know if I took voice at 12 that I would be taught to sing calmly as I had just before then moving.  I would sing in a whispered voice to practice and would have been great.  That point was already past my growing stage.

I can see..

..wut happened..

Should Be Accepted..

but I'm not

Wandering

I'm just waiting for a bomb to tick off and it isn't mine.

Wut

What's really up with Bella Thorne and her ego, being like I think a hint to say I'm not an approved singer when I doubt she's had much training.  3o

I think a lot of people wish to say that of my singing style.  What @ Sarah Brightman's acclaim that she has?  Don't you see it?  I do like to try to sing standardly|classically.  I think I am a real opera singer for sure, I just lost some of my voice, not quite sure how to get that strength fresh again.

YouTube Comment

I posted it on the site

Sarah Brightman - Nessum Dorma - 2013-11-22

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Wow, this is 1 of the best performances of her I've seen, love then all!